day 100: nice number eh

July 13, 2010.

assalamualaikum.

hi, blog..

nice number, 100 days. wink.

back to the previous entry, i did mention my sweetheart will visit me on last friday. well, it just a plan where by any time and any how it can be change depends on his current conditions.

in fact, the 1st plan is cancel. yesss. he cant visit me on last friday because of times limitation. am i frustrated? frankly speaking, i am not. i am ok.

this is because i need to conduct a very last minute plan event, last saturday. started on friday eve, i am super busy. luckily we postpone the date. ha ha.

bla bla bla. the hectic saturday is over. there were 2 events held at my work station last saturday. 1st is vvip lunch for 100pax. 2nd is bbq night for 60pax.

thing is the 2nd event is the most irritating event ever! sigh. i am dealing with top 10 fussy peeps and until now i am still hearing some noises from them. huhh.

fine. back to the story, last sunday my sweetheart visited me at my work station. this is our 1st time ever met each others after almost 3 months ++ he left me.

what a lovely day ever. ha ha. i can see him with his red nike jersey stand by waiting for me. my heart beat fast! well, i am nervous. *blushed.

eh, better stop now. some one at hq visiting me.. will cont later..

p/s: he wear red nike jersey and i wear red padini top. i love the coincidences.




xoxo,

July 05, 2010.

assalamualaikum.

good morning blog.

today is the 1st day he was in pulada, jb for a training course. i am praying hard for his success and wishing him the best for his future undertakings esp in this career.

sweetheart,

i miss you so much.

very very much. sob..





p/s: pics above taken during on his commission day 2010.





xoxo,

day 90: mission 1 (almost) complete

July 04, 2010.

assalamualaikum.

good morning blog.

days, night, days, night.. today is the day 90 he officially as an army officer. alhamdulillah..

it was still early to predict what will happen next after i observed, he was buried by burden of work loads yet he always enjoy and love his career.

as far as what i am looking into myself, i didnt have any probs staying with him. zero complains about his time tables. i did enjoy the long distance relationship as much as i enjoy my life with the surroundings..

again, alhamdulillah.

after a month (more or less) he transferred to mentakab camp, he went to his 1st time mission at down south johore.

he never inform me details what the missions are all about because this is a private and confidential mission at the nation's boundaries.

once or twice a weeks he did make a phone calls to me, rarely text me esp on duty and updates about his current conditions after he settle his tasks.

and today is the last day after 2months of mission at down south..

according to our 1st plan, he thought he will get a holiday and pack his stuffs off to his home sweet home. then planning on our engagement.

unfortunately..

he received a news that he need to attend a training course at pulada, jb. the training will be held from tomorrow morning onwards until nov, 2010.

hurm.. the good news is he will be at down south until nov, 2010. on the other hand, we shall postpone our engagement date to i am not sure when. hu hu..

however, i belives there is rainbow after a rainy day <-boleh?? ha ha.

p/s: until now, is getting ready to work station. see you then, blog.




xoxo,

day 81: he loves me more

June 24, 2010.

assalamualaikum.

hi, blog.

i want to continue my experiences having a young army officer as my bf.

last night he text me, 'ups.. selamat berbuka. sorry lambat wish'. i am kind of appreciate with efforts he shown me last night.. i know he did try his best in this relationship.

so do i..

once a day he text me, ' good morning syg'. that's it. then he silent until late at night or sometimes none.

i did text/ send him reports (ha ha) any time i want. but never hope for his replies because i know it well he didnt reply me when he was at work.

he is a young army officer, holding weapon 24/7 protects this country. then what was i expecting for? i understand his career.. 24/7 is his working hours.

i never complains.

yeah.. maybe sometimes i am talking to myself when i am really miss him. comforting myself when deep down there is hurtful..

being me, it is normal.

sooner or later everything will be ok. just, dont take it seriously and too much of concentrating about things that ensured.

oh, taking about last night (back on the right track), we manage to spend about 15mins sms each others which it was the most precious times ever for us.

he asked me why i am fasting? i said i paid for nazar. hurm.. i rarely doing this. if i am not mistaken, last time i nazar was back to high school for flying colors' result purposes.

then, i said ' i nazar for him. if he didnt transfered to sarawak, i will fasting for 7 days'.

he replied, 'yay. terharunya. thanks syg. ni yang buat abg bertambah-tambah syg kat syg'.

i am blushed..

p/s: i hope you know how much i love you too, sweetheart.





xoxo,

day 78: the conflict began ..

June 21, 2010.

assalamualaikum.

hi, blog.

arghh.. last night we argued about a serious matter. i dislike when he cant decided where to go/ what to do when the moment i 100% ready to move.

actually this is the 1st argument after he is officially become an army officer.

well, we seldom argued about something or i can count maybe one or two times after about three years we have been together. sigh.

however, last night i told you is the most annoying time ever and i kind of frustrated with him! T_T i said annoying because he never realized that i was insisting! sob. sob.

this is because he busy watching italy vs new zealand!! -__-" fine. i know it was the wrong time for me to merajuk or what so ever. hu hu.

at the end, after the game is over he did text me ' aduhh.. seri la.' then i replied ' jangan cakap dengan syg. syg tengah merajuk ni.' sob. sob. sob.

gosh.. until now he didnt text me at all @__@"

p/s: i vote for argentina! waka waka (this time for africa).



xoxo,

midnight updates

June 19, 2010.

assalamualaikum.

goodmorning blog.

sigh. i amusing my lil sister's lappy. things that i really dislike about her lappy is clearly gramatical errors identified and iamlazy to corret it.

her keyboard has being silly andneeded to type harder than usual. if iam using my usual preassure, some words connected within each others.

i did click the space bar but sometimes it still did not work. should i type like a typewriter?

beside the space bar another reason why i dislike her lappy is it cannot detected grammatical errors such as wrong spelling and etc.

being me, i am still in a learning process writing in english. however,please excuse me if in thismidnight updates there are lot of gramatical errors. huhu hu.

oh,i am sleepy. now was 0130 morning. still awake -___-"this is the last day i enjoy this moment staying up and updating blog.

starting tomorrow onwards, say good bye to sleep late midnight because my holiday is over. arghh.. i wish i could extend it. sob. sob.

*yawning.

feels like many stories toshare howeveri am busy chit chat with my ex-girl school mate about her brother's wedding ceremony. her brother is an army officer.

dont blame me why chatting with her now is the prior rather than updating blog. hu hu.

this is such a new experience for getting to know more about army's life. wink. insya Allah, why not because this is for my good sake too.

on the other hand, i did found one of my ex-girl school mate is marrying an army officer too. i did go through on her fb and enjoytheir wedding pics. ha ha. thank you fb for conneting me with my buddies.

over all, there are 3 of my ex girl school mate married with armies. alhamdulillah. alhamdulillah.

p/s: is praying hard for this good willing always and forever showered by joys and happiness.





xoxo,

day 69: world cup

June 12, 2010.

assalamualaikum.

hello blog. hello world cup die hard fans.

last night my sweetheart text me after he finished his work. i like!! couple of days ago, almost every nights he works until morning and left me alone. sob.

but never mind. as long as the celcom broadband is full coverages and the farm frenzy pizza party is on the desktop i am doing fine. ha ha.

back to the topic, i did asked him about his favvy soccer country and he proudly replied me 'now and forever italy!' hu hu hu.

then, i text him 'wait and see. ha ha!'

because i am a big fan of argentina. la la la. thank god argentina and italy are not in the same groups. mine was in group b on the other hand, his favvy was in group f. fine..

meaning that, there is no points for us to fight just because of soccer/ world cup! ha ha ha.

p/s: what are you favvy countries?
** kak liza, i know you are one of a die hard fan of soccer right? wink..




xoxo,

day 54: yahoo messenger

May 28, 2010.

assalamualaikum.

good morning blog.

thank god for this beneficial technology for us.. currently we are chatting via yahoo messenger. he did waiting for me while i am writing this quick note.



at least even we did not meet each others about one month and a half, everything is gonna be fine when once or twice a week we did manage to communicate via yahoo messenger.

alhamdulillah.. my love, our love is strong. far in a distance but stay close in our hearts. insya Allah.

p/s: have a nice holiday. both of us are on duty lah. no cuti-cuti. isk.

xoxo,

day 45:positive thinking

May 19, 2010.

assalamualaikum.

good morning blog.

hurm.. something is haunting me. this is about what i have heard couple of days ago.. about sweetheart.

the fact is, "he has looking for a partner to bring along during the dinner last month."

he never told me about this before. i just wonder.. ok maybe he has informing me about the dinner but not about the partner.

it is true i cant accompany him because we are far in distance. he was in pahang and i was in johore.

seriously impossible for me to go to pahang just for the dinner.

but i..

i have to take this in positive way.

until now i am not sure either he bring any gal to the dinner or not. i have try to keep this secret but it is hard.

there is one time, i have try to ask him about this but i cant. i dont know how to start. then i just let the issue pending..

phew..

sometimes it is complicated. however, i never let this mess up my life. let this uncomfortable feelings go away!

i hope.. who ever he meet before and after this, his love for me is forever.

speaking about the partner, i have experienced it before. they must bring along a partner every time there held a dinner.

once, i have accompanied him last time during the training session. luckily i was in kl that time. some of his buddies need to bring along any gals..

i never complain about this. if you cant accept this tradition never get along with them.

so far i am doing fine. eh, am i fine? i guess, i am not. sigh.

let me clear this, i can accept this because my love to him is ever last. since this is a last month's story, so far i can handle myself.

if.. he mention about this earlier i guess i may not calm like what i am now. i assures in negative thinking or what so ever. well, who can sit peacefully if your love one is going dinner with any gals??

hu hu hu.

what ever it is. it was past.. like a month.

if he bring any gal, i cant say anything. i just hope they are just friends not more than that. *jealous mode.

*************************

he tried to invite his cousin to accompany him but she cant.. i am sorry, i cant help you too sweetheart.

sigh. deep down there, my heart silently crying.

p/s: syahira must think positive.
** since he is away out-station, i hope he did not read this.




xoxo,

day 42: serious talk.

May 16, 2010.

assalamualaikum.

hi, blog.



wow! such cant believe this. it was 42 days of journey as a real life of military girl friend. why i called this as REAL?

because previously under the training session, i easily adopted everything. now it has change..

no more happy hours, no more study schedule and no more excuses.

he has working and serving under the flag of army to this country. sounds BIG responsible, right. being his girl friend is not easy.

the key words are sacrifice, strong, patient, independent and trust.

so, last night after i am not sure maybe about a week we did not chat through the phone i text him. i said, we need to talk. hurm.

alhamdulillah, he is free. yeay.. he called me.

many things have been discussed last night. i need an explanation. just an explanation. enough said.

he did mention that even one of his friend who has married yet hard to explain to his wife about his career.. being their wives too are not easy, i told you. esp at the early stages of marriages.

they are not like any man outside. their responsibility towards this country much more higher and bigger than anything else. they cant stay close to you..

alhamdulillah. so far i am doing fine. at the 1st time i accepted his proposal i did understand and get ready for this uncertainties. as what i said before, my family his family and all my friends are always here to support me.

there is no worries. but, from time to time i just need a simple explanation. i never asked more than that. what i really wanted now, he is doing fine there and always love me.

again alhamdulillah. we were seriously in relationship for about 2 years and a half. staying 2 years and a half with him is the preparation for me to understand bit by bit on being a military wife.

insya Allah.

p/s: he just text me, inform that it was raining heavily there. pity him.

** i never asked him details about his job because this is private and confidential. in fact, there are against the rule oh!




xoxo,

day 31

May 05, 2010.

assalamualaikum.

morning blog.



days, nights, days and nights.. my sweetheart has moved to pahang for a month. meaning that, about a month too we did not met each others.

for 1st few weeks, i can described as suffer living like what i have go through. i am sick because i am handling too much of emotions.. it is painful.

now it was a month. as what i am expected, i am doing fine. this is the real life of army's girlfriend. there teach me on being a stronger, patient, independent (yes, i am) and trust each others.

the happiest moment for day 31 is he was in johore now! he told me he has a mission impossible for two months. wink.

p/s: i am loving it. he love it more..




xoxo,

day 24

April 28, 2010.

assalamualaikum.

i miss everything about you.

morning blog!



hi blog.

couple of days ago i listen to colbie caillat. she reminds me of my sweetheart.

ha ha. i miss everything about him.

well, this is what we called falling in love with an army. always left behind for days and night. maybe weeks or months. due to his career. *never mind.

missing him is a price to pay when i am falling in love with him. i believes, the rest who connected with them will missing them too.

and this is just a beginning for me for a long way journey to go with him. today is the day 24. not yet a month and years more coming ahead.

p/s: he just text me. now he is on the way to camp. he has done his training. ai ai captain!





xoxo,

not good. not good.

April 27, 2010.

assalamualaikum.

hello blog..

sometimes when i am in trouble or something mess up my life, i did remind myself that might those things happen because it want to tease me. *my positive minded.

however, it did not work lah. yet, i am still having the difficulty till the end. there are no sign of teasing or what so ever. it is really happen ok! huh..

say, for an example:

day 7.

in a week, my sweetheart just send me 3 sms and a very short phone call. during my birthday he did not call me or even sms me at all. see, how broken my heart into pieces. *cried.

it a record where by the longest time ever we did not contact each others. at least, if he was going for out station or training any where he did inform me.

and most of the time, a night before he left me he definitely spend his time just for a phone call. but he is NOT.

i am stuck. i thought, fine. he like teasing me maybe. or he want to see how far is my loyalty to him. so i live my life as nothing happen and stay calm in minded crisis. ha ha.

day after day, night after night until..

day 9.

i received a phone call one night. the number started with 09- xxx . eh? who is this? i pick up the phone and i heard a voice which i miss thousand times! surprised me.

he did inform me he was doing fine there and mention to me his senior officers kept his phone. gulp.. then, he told me not to worry much and kindly told me NOT to call/ text him for a few moments.

hu hu hu.

this is NOT TEASING but it is truely happen to him. even i have prepared mentally and physically yet when this really happen to me i feels like broken deep down there.

it's hurtful!

i asked for strengthens to move on. i believes, how far he go someday he will come back to me. the moment when he was there for me, i assure he will proud of me. insya Allah.

p/s: every women seems to have different story. at the end, the love is yours. go go girls!

** at 1st i want to stand my opinion about two famous bloggers who creates hot drama on blogging arena. end up i stand myself about my story much better..

*** i hope both of them or more will doing fine. i am not sure who is digging her own graves.. hu hu.

**** i read peej and redmummy. hurm did not know much about them. therefore, i better shut up and stay silent. how about yours?




xoxo,

day 22

April 26, 2010.

assalamualaikum.

i am counting for him. 22 days ago, he transferred to pahang means 22 days full of bitter, not sweet and sour memories. hu hu hu.

couple of days ago, i send him sms. but, this morning i received a report:

Message not delivered
Abg syg
26-Apr-2010 12:02

*cried again.

it means that he away to jungle again T_T
hurm.. he did mention to me, might be he will going for a week.

p/s: i am waiting for him. eh, actually he just back from a week of training in jungle.

**george of the jungle. any one remember this??




xoxo,

day 20

April 24, 2010.

assalamualaikum.

hi blog.

suppose i update on my journey living without him close to me. but it change to this:

over 20 days he transferred to pahang, i accidentally cut my fingers twice! which today was the worst cut ever when it hardly stop bleeding.

i can smells the blood. urghh.

it happen when i help my staffs to cut burger's bun into two pcs <- correct me if i am wrong. i manages to finish 125 buns until i cut my fingers. hu hu hu.

previously, i help my staff to cut a watermelon. end up i cut the same finger! sob.

p/s: i just requested my staff to sharp the knife! T_T




xoxo,